There I stood in the lobby of the chiropractor's office. The young woman at the front dest had just informed me that their office did not accept my insurance. I believe she continued to speak, but I could not hear her past the tears that were flowing down my cheeks, unbidden, and the embarrassment that was burning my face. "Wow," I thought, "I cannot believe that I'm crying, right here in front of this girl, right here in the lobby of the chiropractor's office." That was just evidence of the desperate place I was operating out of.
It had been five years since my second child was born. My health had been deteriorating ever since and I had hoped that this chiropractor, with a nutritionist on site, could help me find some relief. I'd been to many doctors, and been on and off of medications. I'd had all of the tests done. I had looked into natural remedies and tried many items from our local health food store that promised to make me feel better. Up until that point, nothing had worked. I thought this place, at long last, was my answer. I even felt like God had led me there. "God, why? Lord, what now? Please, Lord. I need Your help."
A couple of weeks later, a friend at church handed me the business card of a chiropractor her mom had found great success with. No surprise to God, they used the very same nutritional supplements that the first chiropractor offered. I became a patient and there began my first step toward greater health and freedom. If anything, I have learned that finding greater health is a journey. It involves trial and error, being willing to ask questions and learn from others' experiences, and lots and lots of prayer.
Desperation stinks, but desperation is often the catalyst to bring about change. The song, "Never Once" by Matt Redman is my favorite reminder of God's hand in this process, and in all areas of my life. It says, "Never once did we ever walk alone." Never once! Not even for a moment. How good, how sweet, how true, how comforting. I need that reminder daily. Are you going through a hard time? Are you wondering where to turn or where the answer lies? I pray that you'll be comforted by the truth that you are never alone. Look up. He wants to help you.
Until Part 2….
